Two years ago, almost went nuts.. but time heals everything.. Im good now!

4 or 5 hours ago….I hit it hard….face flat on the ground….I’m serious btw, I was messed up 5 hours ago…I’m feeling better now tho, just letting it all settle….i had a stupid conversation at work about gay ppl and had a worker who i happen to like and respect tell me that she hates gay people and that they are with the “devil” so she put me right back into my insecurities…and then my ex came online…and i apologized for sending that nasty msg to her two weeks ago
(she deserved it she put me thru hell) and she said she’ll never forgive me…so thats messed up too…eh what can u do?

I hope thats what you meant, as in the last time u “cryed” or were hurt or in a bad mood ect ect…

EDIT:
Well there you go, I understood it correctly! Yay for me. 😛

Never, I’ve never been addicted to anything that would cause me to get to that point.
Well maybe with exception to breathing, eating, living…you know…the usual stuff.

Y-you mean there’s someplace else!?

I would say right now, but I am afriad to do so. You know how it always get worse right when someone says “It can’t get worse than this.” This is the lowest I have ever been, as far as I can remember, but I am sure I can still get lower. Just to give a summery:

*Last week was the annivesary of my father’s death, 7 years ago.
*That same day, I had to bail my brother out of jail for shoplifting at Wal-Mart, and HE HAD THE MONEY TO PAY FOR WHAT HE STOLE!!! (that dumb ass)
*I used rent money for bail, and he has not paid me back so I am behind on my rent
*There has been an error at the cable company and they say I owe them over $800.00 which I do not have.
*3 nights ago, my 8 month old developed a twitch and has to go see if he has infant tremours which can cause brain damage.
*My fience’s car broke down and he missed a call back for a part in a movie, which means he has no shot at the job and is unemployed.
*I need a new transmission for his car, which is alomst not even worth replacing.
*My mother’s disability has been denied, again.
*My car was hit while parked in the grocery store parking lot.
*The total of my purchases that trip came to $6.66
*And to top it all off, it is near 100 degrees outside, and I have no ac in my car so when I go anywhere, I am drenched in sweat and so is my son.

But, like I said, I refuse to say this is rock bottom because as soon as I do, thing will get worse. I hope my luck changes very soon, I don’t know how much more I can take!

Never, I have literally led a very blessed life!