Thks for the welcome back,,I cant say anyone abuse me,I was angery at the requirements for being a part of certain forums that only include those that own,work,or apprentice for certified shops and pratices.When I found this site I was very happy to find the level of expierence and professionalisem that was obviouse at the start.As i tried to look in on more advanced discussions about tattoo on a more technical level.I was not abile to even look to learn more.blocked out for not being associated with a legit shop.
As un knowledgabile as I was,I felt anger for for not having access to information I wanted that may help me become an better tattoo artist & person (thats right >smarter< )
No one abused me,and I was angery at the rules,not anyones bad treatment of me as a scratcher.Yeah my pride was hurt because I didnt know the differance between “apprenticing” and being “self taught”
I know now it rather HUGE, Even with the best videos and information availabile its just not the same as some one bringing me in and teaching my thick brain to shudup and pay close attention.
Big differance..
If you want to know
‘why” in an abstract form,I can post my previouse art work and see that I wasnt a total wreck at being a scratcher.but still could not denie the stigma of being labled one.

A picture may well be a better laguage for an artist culture okay
So this is more me then a bunch of words
Thanks for the suggestion Outlaw

eh may this aint the place to post pics?
Thi img code didnt work,,,but its there if yall wanna check it (slow learner)